fOcUs!

WOW!
I just came from worshiping God and just being in his presents.
Oh God I still amazed at the things you still do in me
WOW!
Ok so I'm worshiping right?
And God was speaking to me and he said, "worship like a child".
So I obeyed and went CrAzY!
It was awesome.
Then he was like, "ok, now worship as if I was right here in your room sitting in this chair".
(For those of you who don't know I have this old 80's[ish] orange velvet couch chair in the corner of my room!)
I was like "ok?"
And I just brought a worship before the Lord that I haven't been able to do in a long time.

Side track: When I was about 12 years old I started to discover who I wanted to be in Christ and one of the things I wanted to do for him is DANCE! I love to dance! (everyone know this I'm sure!) But I started to just dance during worship and that was one big way I would worship God. Then I had some big problems (most of you already know and if you don't you can ask me in person cause it's a long story and I not afraid to tell it cause I've been healed of that) and eventually I just didn't want to dance. After a year or so God started to heal me of that but I still struggle. So coming before him like this was so hard but almost a relief. All those time I said no when I was mad and didn't feel like dancing came out suddenly.

I haven't been able to being him that worship I did when I was younger.
That worship of when I first found his love.
My first love.
So I put everything aside and just danced
And I was just overcome by his presents and his great love for me.
I started dancing to this song by David Crowder called, "Only You"
And there's a part of the song that says, " And It's just you and me here now. Only you and me here now."
At that point God said, "dance with me my beloved. Put out your hand and I'll receive it. You're safe in my arms. Just dance with me. The dance of your first love. It is safe. It's only you and me."
I cried, but obeyed.
So I put out my hand and dance around my room as if dancing with another person.
I felt SO weird cause I probably looked like one of those little girls that would imaging they were dancing with a prince or something.
But I was!
I was dancing with my prince.
My prince of peace
I just started crying and God just comforted me and said that it was ok
Then when the song was over he let me go dance alone and sat down in the chair to watch
I just kept dancing for my King
And he just kept saying, "Don't stop. I love it. I love you. Keep going. Don't stop my princess. Keep going beloved."
And I did and I haven't felt his presents this powerful in so long
And he said to me, "Keep coming back. Keep coming in. Meet with me all the time."
And I encourage everyone to spend time in your secret place a little more
His calling for you, his bride
He says, "I'm here. I'm waiting for you. Come in o' beloved one. We are safe here in our secret place. Come in. PLEASE COME IN. I want to you. I miss you. I love you. Draw near to me and I will draw near to you. When you cry I catch every single tear. Come to me and I will give you rest. In me there is forgiveness my child."







"Here's what I want you to do: Find a quiet, secluded place so you won't be tempted to role-play before God. Just be there as simply and honestly as you can manage. The focus will shift from you to God, and you will begin to sense his grace.
Matthew 6:6


Good night and God Bless
Samantha